Chapter 8: Areas That Challenge You Or Are Difficult For You

You have difficulty asserting your will and desires directly and openly. You also may suppress your anger and aggressiveness. Developing self-confidence, courage, and faith in yourself are important tasks for you. You are very conscientious, responsible, and concerned with your duty, your public image and reputation, and becoming a person of stature in the world. You understand the need for hard work and careful planning in order to accomplish anything substantial and you're capable of much self-discipline and patience once you set your sights on a goal. But you are very judgmental and hard on yourself if you fail to attain success, and you can become dry, bitter, or cynical if the world doesn't recognize your efforts. Your faith, optimism, and sense of possibilities are tempered by much caution, and often doubt or skepticism as well. Whatever hopes or visions you have for your life are firmly held in check by your sense of reality. At times you may wish for more freedom, but you also fear it and hang back. You may blame practical limitations or some external condition or the prevailing Authority for your own inhibitions. Now we will discuss patterns of behavior which you instinctively and habitually revert to when under stress - a mostly unconscious process and one which you are apt to overdo because it is so familiar and thus easy for you. The direction you need to follow in order to develop balance, greater awareness, and wholeness is also described. Seeking interpersonal harmony, cooperation, and togetherness, and desiring to please or appease other people is very natural for you so much so that you accommodate them at your own expense. When you are under stress, you tend to look outside yourself for approval or answers, and you lean on others too much. Therefore, developing self-reliance, and the courage to look to yourself for your answers and forge your own path through life is a key factor in development. You are often tempted to be less than completely straightforward about your intentions or desires, and you can become enmeshed in a swamp of "little white lies" and evasions. Radical honesty with yourself and others is the only way out! This, however, leads you to confront some of your most deeply ingrained fears, such as "what if "they" don't like me?" and "what if I have to go it alone?". Cultivate your ability to be assertive, to take initiative and act on your own behalf. Directness and self-reliance are keys. The arena you are most likely to wrestle with these issues is in your public life and career. All of these issues will impact your reputation and standing in your community or professional circle, as well as how you achieve your important life goals and aspirations. You may have the feeling that you constantly have to surrender to the wishes of other people and give the impression of being passive or indifferent when you are with others. You never take the initiative and depend on the support of groups you are affiliated with. Your feelings are heightened when you are with others and you have the ability to open up to them and show your feeling without reservation. Lead by your instincts, you are likely to have many spontaneous contacts with other people. You seem to have an innate sense of cosmic awareness and are likely to have strong psychical or metaphysical talents. You are inclined to join some parapsychology groups where you may share your unusual experiences with other people. Astrological influences analyzed in Chapter 8: Saturn in Aries Saturn in 10th house Jupiter Quincunx Saturn N. Node in Aries N. Node in 10th house N. Node Opposition Moon/Neptune N. Node Opposition Venus/Uranus N. Node Opposition Neptune/Pluto